Hope

There is hope in all thing, a reason for all the things, and god does things for a reason! God has a willpower for everyone...  If your life is just hitting the roof and you try your hardest to do what Gods wants you to do. Dont put it on yourself. That just means God has another purpose for you. He has a certain plan for each and every one of us. Lets say you are married and having an exultant life with your partner.. Then one deay everything just starts going down the drain. You don't know why, you don't know what to do about it... But all you can do is think.... Why is God doing this to me....or.....Iv tried my hardest to follow Gods plan and this is what he does? .. or... Why do others get blessed but I don't.  god does things for a reason..... If you do all he asks and bad things happen it just means there is  something even more exceptional coming for you. Maybe you made the wrong choice the first time, and he has something ahead for you. All you can do is hope, pray  , and keep strong till you figure out what god has in store. All you can do is wait , and ponder. If you try to live Gods words, he will bless you to the fullest. I'm not saying its the easiest thing to do, becuase it is harder for some to live the commandment then to break them... If something horrible happens for no reason... Just know God has something better, and more sufficient in store for your happiness and eternal life. It took me a while to fathom this concept and iv learned alot from it. Your life might me misserable for a while but holding stong and keeping hope and faith is the only way to surpass it. When I lost Mele, I thought God hated me for all the bad things iv done and he was trying  to punish me. Now that I have the Gospel back in my life I now realize that he assembled it that way because he had something better in store for me, and was giving me a second chance to change. Im very grateful to the lord for that choice he made knowing i had something more to learn. Most people who make that kind of mistake do not get second chances, and he blessed me knowing that by this mistake he would get me back on the right path. It took me a long long LONG time to comprehend the power that God has over us. I think back on how my life would have been like if He had not made the choice he had made, and known my life would not be as Gratifying as it is now. I know if she was still alive I would not be where i am today.. I have a gorgeous fiance, The Gospel back in life... Love for someone I would never have, and the Blessing of a stronger Testimony..... If u have hope and faith you will also realize that things happen for a reason, and God has a certain path he wants to take you down if you follow his teachings he will bless you and show you the right way.

Letting Him in

Christ should be the biggest part in someones life. He has definantly played a big role in mine. I used to be a very big rebel, and rebuked the words of my parents and Christ. I have became the person I am from letting Christ into my life and letting him guide me in the direction I should be headed in. Not until recently in my life have I started to take change and realize that I could never return to him doing the things I continued to do. Logan was a big blessing in my life becuase he was the one who made me realize that I was not leaning towards the path of righteousness. Recently We have had the missionaries come over and Logan started taking the discussions, and it has actually turned on me and helped me even more then I thought it would! Iv missed so much in my life which happens to be things pertaning to the gospel. Logan is the only one I have ever been with who has ever wanted to do devotions with me, pray, and everything else. He doesn't know this, but he has helped me more spiritually then anyone ever has. I think that is why we are soo close is becuse we have this spiritual bond. If I did not ever let the lord in my life.. I know my life would not be worth living, and I thank Logan and my parents for that. He is definantly someone I will spend life and eternity. I love him with all my heart, and we plan on getting married in the Temple and fulfill the promise we have made to our father in heaven. I would like to say a testimony for those who need guidence in there lifes, that I know god lives, and there is only one true chuch on this world and thats The Church Of Jesus Christ Of Latter Day Saints. God gives us the power to do right, and the decision to make our own choices, whether it be bad or good. I know President Monson is the only true living prophet. If u let god in he will direct the way back to Eternal life. I also know God appeared to Joseph Smith and showed him how to builed the kingdome on earth. I know that evil tempts us every day in many shapes and forms and tries it's hardest to bring us down at our weekest times. I know that if we pray and read the scriptures every day we can avoid these temptations and return to him, No matter how hard the trial is that God has given us... We can be strong enough to over come them. And I say these things in the name of jesus christ Amen.

Learning Faith

Iv had a confusing  unvarnished life... Iv learned alot from the experiences and I'v gained so much faith it is crazy. If you do not grow and learn from faith you will not have a great and inspiring life. From learning faith i have gained a better testimony in christ , getting my life together.. and meeting that man of my dreams who i will marry- Whos name happens to be Mr. Logan King.
We Believe we are together becuase God wants us to be.... to help eachother grow spiritualy, physically, and mentaly... This is why......I Met him 4 years ago at Golds Gym when i just happened to appear in Burlington North Carolina becuase i was getting my teeth done. I was only in Nc for 2 months....When I ran into him he was Married.. and i had a bf. We talked but nothing more than that. 3 Years passed and we never thought we would ever see eachother again. In the winter of 08 i Decided to move back to Nc and start a new life.... I worked, had friends and not much more then that. One day I decided to go to a band at a place called the Raven.. I never go...no one was going to be there it as right when it opened at like 9:00 at night. I was sitting at a table talking to a few bouncers i knew.. and i look up and saw a handsome man wearing dress pants Italian shoes and a pink dress shirt.... I was astonished, I knew exactly who that had a be... I couldn't remember his name for a while ,but i just watched him and i was soooooo head over heels!!!! Finally i was blessed and his named just popped in my head... I said ,"Logan!!?" He told me at first he didn't want to turn around to see who it was cuz he was scared to look. So i called his name a second time.... and he turned... He said ," Oh my gosh i can't remember your name but i know exactly who you are!!" We ended up being with eachother all night... He was supposed to just stop through and say hi to a few people and head to Greensboro. But he decided to stay with me... good thing he did.... Ever sense that night we have been together never seperated...... We have had alot of problems becuase.... Well he was a pimp and had a few girlfriends... but i had faith and new if he liked me enough he would change... I went through alot of heaqrt break with him. Christmas of 09 I went to Utah without him ....I was gone for 2 weeks, and it killed Us... Thats when he realized what he had and he never wanted to loose me..... Ever sense then he has been the most sweet, thoughtful, funny, sensitive, and handsome man iv ever known... We have stimulated eachother in so many ways spiritualy by doing devotionals together every day, praying, reading the sctiptures, going to church, listening to uplifting music, and many other things. We are attending the mormon church , the missionaries are coming on sunday.... and I am praying and have faith every day god will show us the way and tell us what we need to do to return to our father in heaven. (Everything happens for a reason!!! If u have faith things come alot easier with gods help!)